Hymns from A Winged Archer

I’m now living with a very good friend around the DLSU area. The past few days have been especially hard for me and I know the same way goes for other people. I’ve just had the craziest experience all bundled up into one bloody week. Full of sleepless nights and a bit of alcohol drinking.

I wished for alot of things to happen, and for things not to happen… Wished I havn’t broken up,.. wished havn’t met certain people,… wished I didn’t try to butt in into other people’s business. Wished I could just end it all…. If there was one major thing that I learned during my one week in Taft ave., it would be the words my friend empartened to me… "the world does not revolve around your wishes or your desires…. the sooner you get that into your system, the better you could funtion." In that spirit i’ll build on what was broken, and move on from what I could not forget. My happy ending is out there, somewhere and i’ll be looking for it. ;P

I don’t blame her, really…. Maybe its the sentimental music in the background or what have you, but truth is… I feel mizzrable without her. It’s hurting an angel, an angel you swore to always protect. I promised forever but came out short. I once said that I will be her happiness… I ended up being the source of her dispair. In this story, there is no villain, but feel free to hate me; in all respects, I prob’ly deserve it anyway.

I can’t bear her cry. specially if it’s because of me. I thought I would grow accustomed to it, feel nothing when she weeps. Truth is… it kills me seeing her like that. I only wish to make her sad for the last time; and that with a goodbye. It would be easier if she simply hated me. made her hate me so much she’d would’t care.

"…. Just like me, they long to be close to you…"   

That’s the song in the background right now. That, if there was a song, that would be ours… Why am I being tortured like this? In this story, that some person has written from up above, there were no villains ,like I said… just a sad ending and a heavy heart….