Hymns from A Winged Archer

I love to sleep. Everyone does…. almost, at least… "why Sleep? when you can do that when your dead..?"- from 007. To dream is to go to that place where you don’t have to think, only what you feel in that few hours you have only to yourself. To feel what you wanted that passed week. to feel what you want in the coming months.

When I was a kid and when I get sick, I dream of carrying this big boulder up on my shoulder over the desert sands. Kinda like prometheus minus the up and down. I guess it’s the burden of getting sick and subconciously knowing I still am going to school that morning (even if Im practically burning).

I also remembered before entering DLSU, I can remember dreaming about standing in line with my HS best friend at the regestrar’s office. How much I really wanted to enter DLSU back then. I actually didn’t apply to any other university. Too bad my best friend never made it.

Dreaming about making people sad as well (happens often). I can see myself doing something stupid and end up hurting them. I guess that is my fear.. hurting people.

Above all, I love to dream of flying… soaring. Leaving all my problems behind, you know? Flying so high, I can touch the stars. To zoom thru clouds and all that.

Then you wake up…. you leave your sanctuary and go back to the real world. Go back to your problems. You forget your dreams and forget what you want . you get up from bed and get back to that hollow shell we all live in. you stop and stop thinking about your needs and start thinking about what really is going on around you. What was rational is now irrational.

*sigh* I guess that’s enuf for tonight. I’ll keep on writing as long as you keep on reading them. ciao! ;P

1. Graduate from DLSU before i turn 24-

2. Learn how to speak a 3rd and 4th language-

3. Win PhP50 million… or at least a car

4. Learn How to drive— pending

5. Hit a homerun—– done

6. Finally fix my braces

7. Get a Job in foreign affairs, or at least a good paying job in the private sector

8. Fly to all six habitable continents

9. win an individual competition—- done

10. Change the world… or at least make a dent in it

11. Dye my hair green

12. Re learn Archery

13. Learn Fencing

14. Re learn Taekwando

15. Learn Judo

16. Learn Boxing

17. Buy a good condo unit

18. Buy a cottage on the mountains, preferrably in Bukidnon

19. Set a trust fund for my decendants.

20. Finally finish my scripts, direct and produce that movie.

21. Learn to fly a plane

22. Get back my abs

23. Build the house I designed

24. To be able to make famous a quote I made

25. Get a Master’s degree and a doctorate

26. To go bungee jumping

27. to sky jump

28. To run naked in a perfect white sand beach and not care

29. "World Peace!"

30. Write a book… a good book!

31. A son that is smart, popular, likable, and successful

32. A grand son that is same as 31

33. That I won’t lose my hair ti’ll im like 70.

34. that my hair will only turn grey so that i’ll look distinguished

35. Have a daughter that won’t be a pain in the ass. same goes for the boys

36. design and build a car

37. I can still reach 6ft

38. I finally can be adept at basketball

39. Dream girl —- done

40. that my daughter would be hot but still won’t ask for a credit card

41. be financially stable—- done     (… again)—– pending

42. Represent the R.P. —- done      (… in the olympics)

43. Get a tattoo

44. Paint again

45. Have an exibit of my paintings

46. do photography again

47. have a photo exhibit

48. to live on interests of my labor once i touch base on my 40th bday

49. To live long enough to see all this happen

50. To have all this happen

I used to watch this show on RPN9, (and if you read the title of this entry, you’ll know the title of the show,) and I really can relate this to who I was back in Highschool. A rebellious kid in a new school, no mom, an absentee dad, no friends..  same trials, .. hey, that was me! :)  I was hooked to that show back then and now they’re  showing it on ETC!

Ok… its been quite some time since iv’e been able to write in my blog. so… here goes…

March 15. Got into a great relationship with a great person.

April… Kickin’ ass at work. doin great but missin’ school. sent in my resignation letter, effective may 15th.

May… resigned. My GF is saddened by this, but… like everything else, we deal with it. Enrolled back into DLSU, aborting any plans i had transferring to UP. That too is foiled when I was not able to "deal" with some payables in school. September pa raw.

June… bumming around the house.. spent all but my emergency funds in the bank. bummer… hey, at least my GF won’t worry about other girls (as if) from school, right?

July… been a rough month. again, we’re coping with the situation. its been 2 looong months since ive done anything productive…. save for the driving lessons i have with tito rafraf.sigh… im really itching to go back to school. goddamn, lets get this thing over with.