Hymns from A Winged Archer

*sigh*…. This Day (night or eary morning for the rest of the filipinos not living the callcenter life) is so boring me out. We just had our mastery test for the program and we have ,like, so much time to kill. Good thing ,(gods bless him)for whoever made Kproxy networks,  that i can access friendster or whatever site in general I want. The guy to my left is looking at this video where chicks are making out with each other (so what’s new?). So boring…..

Ok,  updates… December…. Right after X-mas ( a real bummer), me and my barkada went on this trip to sariyaya, Quezon, using a provincial bus. I gotta tell you, It was one hell of a picnic which lasted four days. It was all about the alcohol man! every evening, we would drink so much "lambanog" and shit that, I guess half of the group barfed their gutts out. This goes with special mention to miguel, that in one night, he barfed around 7? 8 times? Oh yeah, James, on the first day, lost both his O2 and his cellphone to the sea when their tent was blown to the ocean. (next time, bring waterressistant phones). We Also did alot of grappling on the beach, getting alot of gnashes actually. painful but fun. The last day though, we thought we had a great day to swim.. clear skies, warm blue sea… how we were wrong. while at sea, swimming and all that, the horizon became pitch black and we thought it would be kinda fun to swim while it was raining. But then, the rain was too strong for us, so we headed to the tents. Shit man! we totaly forgot to close the doors and the windows on our tents! all our cloths were drenched bad, alot of our fones died, and we had no place left to stay(being that our tents are flooded.). We spent the night though at kuh ledesma’s empty lot, in her pavillion, drying ourselves and all that. I was depressed, and I shoud’ve been depressed being all I was wearing was a damn brief and T-shirt in that cold evening. But everybody else had it bad as well, or even worse; but they were still smiling, and so I did. When you look back at it anyways, It builds character and friendship. I returned to manila tired but with higher insights and spirits.

January came, the fireworks have passed; and I am now working for the "rival" company of E-tel. The pay isn’t that great though, compared to what I used to get and the rules seem to be a bit more rigid. But it beats traveling all the way to makati to work and , hopefully, I get to catch up on my rest. Plus, the group im with right now is, to put it simply, is just like college (like home!). Could use a bit (actually, alot) more of the opposite sex. And unlike in etel where i was a sales rep, in here, im part of tech support. no commissions but you don’t deal with other people’s money. Oh yeah, apat kami na barkada sa training. the guy watching the girls make out? yeah, he’s one of them. (Truman) out of us four, he has the most Ccenter experience so we kinda try to draw wisdom out of him. Another guy, well, in all honesty, he looks like a damn bouncer in a rock concert (self admittion) but is quite a gentle giant. (Wally)He’s a former guidance councilor for a school and, among us four, he is the horniest (as if either one of us wern’t enuf…).  And there is this techie guy (JP) who seems to know the in’s and out’s of a PC (enet) system; but it is hard to tell or believe that he is. by the way, he looks like a bouncer as well, and plays the guitar like a maniac. And what’s my role in the group? in all honesty, I don’t know really. but it seems to work out quite well.

Oh, bytheway, I find it weird that the people I get to hate or the people that I don’t actually like in the beginning, well, they grow on you. dunno…. just a thought.

Febuary….. Anniversaries, broken hearts, memory lane…  shit… this sucks. 1st time in a long time I don’t have a bloody date on the 14th. no worries. I think it’s over rated anyway. It’s a good thing I still have MiniMe ("pando") to play with. he’s my cat btw… anyways, gtg, bye

I deleted my 5 previous posts already. It is stupid, I know, but I guess its a way to vent whatever emotions I have left for her. I guess an analogy would be something like the bonfire we had with my barkada in Quezon. I poured all of my heart into that Flame. All that passion, emotion and what have you. The Flame simply grew too big until I guess… It consumed me, Heart and soul. And as fast as it consumed me, as so when it receeded into embers. And all these time, iv’e been clinging to something, unconscienciously, I knew was never meant to last.

At the same time, I went out with others, looking for the same high,looking for the same passion and emotion I had with her, who was I kidding.

I met her for the last time and it was unexpected. It was one of those few times that she wasn’t on my mind and I thought our story already has already ended. I heard her voice call out my name from behind. She’s just as pretty ,if not more, that sweet night. I thought that night, I only I can go back in time, and fix all the things I ruined so badly, then… maybe then… But in truth i’d still do the same mistakes, all that… save for saying goodbye.

I am still holding on to those embers though…, even if something else consumes me.