Hymns from A Winged Archer

Grabe, ive been going back and forth to DLSU to, 1st of all, check up on my friends, 2 scorn myself by looking at the pretty babes at DLSU and have my mind disillusioned for ever leaving there; and finally, to earn a bloody living. Ang boring ano? yups… counterstrike, tong-its and then later, product proposal.

At least our government is still there to entertain us. Imagine…. its like a circus out there. Hehehe, lots and lots of clowns too. You can see there the "man who came back from the dead", lots of reptiles ( specially crocs), and the animal tamer and biggest clown, our president. Who wouldn’t be entertained? Sometimes I just wanna sit back, open a bag of potato chips and watch the proceedings on TV. at least its better than WOWOWEE and Eat Bulaga. There’s drama, action, comedy and betrayal. Too bad though… I think this circus is about to come to a close at the sona. Hope they make a 2nd season of it.. or better yet, make a DVD or VCD of it. This show already has the makings of a movie anyway… its own soundtrack( hello Garci) and is very well advertised. Damn… im getting old. till next time.

Crap… I hope this would become very quotable. (",) but, all things aside and at a rather rational point of view, is it not us that created God or gods and they only continue and will continue to exist is because of us? I don’t know…. Idol ko kasi si Voltaire kasi eh. He said "If there were no God, man would make it a neccessity to make one." I hope I took it a step further. Our continued good fortunes and it’s counter are because of… well,… ourselves as well, not of any metaphysical being. we tend to underestimate our abilities as humans, and over estimate something that is fictional. In the end, it still ends up as your personal decision; ergo Pascal’s wager.

I Have A Lost Little Kitten That needs Your Help!

Last night, or more like this early morning at 2am, I went down stairs from my room because I couldn’t fall asleep. I went to the Kitchen and then went to the Lue. I then wanted to check up ont he T.V. just so that I can be bored enough to fall asleep. It was pitch black at the salas except for the gleaming green eyes of our cat. She was hissing at something at the window so I went to look at it myself. To my surprise, I saw a kitten at the window, trying to get its footing on the window’s ledge.

The kitten was very malnurished and very light for its size. its skin from the back up to its head is all but gone. she is, to my belief is half blind on one eye and the ears and skin are dry and bumpy.

I fed the kitten with some milk and cheese thru the early morning.though I am a very deep cat lover and would gladly raise the kitten on my own power, I realized that I cannot keep it because of some great sircumstances (Family, etc). If you can adopt a kitten in such poor condition or know someone who will, please contact me ASAP.

Its the worst thing iv’e ever wished for, and I reeeally regret asking for it.

When I was in 1st year HS, I looked,… well… like a 1st yr student. curious as I was like alot of my age, I wanted to feel what it would be like if I went to a rated film at a mall, during school hours. So I kinda wished that I would look a bit more mature and look at least 18 so that I could enter. T

The, the opportunity rose and I didnt tell whoever was gonna fetch me that I had no classes for that day. I entered the mall, went to pay for the ticket, went in, and success. Hehehe, I was so happy and bragged alot about that. then I reached the age of 18 and it then felt lame to enter such shows since they dont show the whole platter.

College was around the corner so I went to an acting workshop so that I would get my confidence pumping. There were alot of people in the workshop at that time, and a few who dared to strike a conversation with me, which I was happy to entertain. Then they asked me, "excuse me, but how old are you?". I dont know what came over me but I threw them back the question, "how old do you think I am?". They replied "oh about 25 or 26?!?" SHET….. I was 18 at that time and the gap seemed so big that it was so unbelievable. It struck me that from then on, it became one of my main concerns.

Yet fate would get back at me for the pleasures I had during my youth.

Twice, It became a thorn at my side. and twice it made me wish what I wished.

I was "Kidnapped" for this pyramiding scam my blockmate had (i thought I was going to be treated out to dinner). Since I was there, (i think the pyramid is called destiny or some crap; its in ortigas) I thought I might as well listen to what they had to say and make a debate about it. as I sat there, 3 gorgeous ladies joined me for the business opportunity. They were all from Davao and they were all so bloody stunning. And not trying to make this seem as a fantasy, they were looking at we with great interenst. midway thru the discussion, they were asking about our ages. The girls replied in chronological order, 20,21,23. Damn, they were older than me. I was kinda ashamed that I was 19 at the time, but I had to blirt it out. The one who presented was shocked and stuttered to ask if I was really 19. I said yeah. I could feel the 3 girls give a sigh of hmmm… *Sayang*. Dont worry girls, I feel the same way.

the second time this happened, I was at my dad’s office; he was out for a meeting so I was left alone with some of the people from the other office (they were all female by the way). Noticing the boss was gone, one of them started to flirt with me. Taking nothing away from her, she was pretty indeed so I happily obliged this. I was sitting, using my dad’s computer and then she came into the office and asked for petty little excuses like can I borrow your stappler and tried to strike small converstions with me. she came in then came out until she sat at my dad’s desk, right in front of me. She then asked how old was I. I said 19. she said oh…. and went out, never to return again.

damn…. the misfortunes this wish has brought on to me. If I can give advice to the youth, don’t you ever wish you could grow old because you will spend the whole of your life wishing you were younger…(",) (^-^)

Usually I just type a bunch of crap in my little sanctuary here in cyberspace… still am, and always will. ^-^ Anyways, what I have for you today is about the rain. I dont know about you people, but I find the rain very beautiful and romantic at the same time. rain seems to clean everything as it pours down from the heavens. It has this calming effect as well that sort of makes you feel part of a painting. when a person plays in the rain, its like poetry in motion… especially if the person is a female.

I miss especially the times when I was in HighSchool. As if taken from a black and white painting or photograph; a classroom with the lights at the rear closed. it is around 7:30 in the morning and it has been raining steadily for hours. the sky is gray and the whole school turns into a monestary in it’s silence. Half of the class did not show up for shcool and the teacher opted not to teach and just sits and minds her own on her desk. the students are either asleep or huddled with each other, quietly wispering secrets. those that are asleep take refuge in their jackets, while others simply stare out the window, watching the rain fall on the ground or kiss the window.

It only happened to me on a few rare occations, but I often think of it when it pours…. just like now. (",) hope you liked the picture iv’e etched for you, Take care